So, I just read an update from mom about dad. It said that he is pain and having a hard time breathing and sleeping. I want so badly to take his pain away. I know that he would do it for me and I don't want to be uncomfortable. It is so hard to see someone you love suffer in any way. I know the hardest thing for him is to be in bed, yet that is really his only choice. How amazing Christ and our Father in Heaven must be. They watch us suffer to much and I know they love us. I have the hardest time see my dad suffer. Kenya has had a cold the last few days, nothing to bad, just a runny nose and cough. It has been bad enough to make her uncomfortable a have a hard time sleeping. The last 2 nights I have almost cried because I want to take her discomfort away. I understand for Kenya her discomfort is temporary, but I have a hard time. Dad, his is most likely not temporary, but temporal. That is even harder.
I know it was right to come to China! The Lord told us to come and I know that dad would not want me to stick around for him, but I really want/wanted to stay close! I guess it could be a blessing too, because dad does not like others to see him suffer and doesn't want others to pity him.
I love you daddy! I don't want you to suffer, and I don't want to loose you! Just have faith and get better!
PS Dad, if you read this I apologize if it makes you feel weird or anything. I just had to get it out. I LOVE YOU!
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