There is so much speculation around death. I have thought of hundreds of questions that I would like answered about what went on durning the last few hours of his life and "what if" questions and "if only" questions. This was all in the first 2 hours of his death. As Robert, Kenya, mom and I were leaving the hospital at about 5:00 am I could not help but feel, "it does not matter do not dwell on it." Some of my thoughts were, "He didn't want to die in the hospital, I wish he could have been at home;" "Is there more I could have done for him;" the list can go on and on. Really, there is no way to change any of it and there is no way to find out the answers. I really was not dwelling on it, but my mind could not stop thinking about how it could be different or what it is like beyond death (I know the plan of salvation, and know it is true, but what is the Spirit World like?) does he remember dying? Will he interact with "baby inside" before it come to earth etc...
So, here is the answer and explanation I got from God without really asking for it.
Be careful not to dwell on these things. This is where anger, disappointment and blaming others or even God stems from. Right then I understood, it was okay to let those questions form, but I should not search for answers or dwell on what the outcome of changes could have been. Whats done is done and it was for sure an answer to prayers and quite possibly a miracle send just for us.
More to come in a few days or so!
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